The Beginning of The end

 It's hard to say exactly what the tipping point was that ushered in my plan to rid myself of my alcoholic ex-husband, the one day does stand out in my memory as being a critical point.

My ex-husband kept complaining about my housekeeping, parenting, shopping and then he said he never had anytime to himself.  To accommodate him I began taking our four children to church more regularly and ended up a deaconess and took over the running of the churches' nursery room.   

I did this as a way for my ex-husband to have some alone time. It worked out well for awhile and then he started complaining about how it wasn't enough.  I was getting pretty tired of his complaining  to me about me ALL of the time so I decided to quit the church and stay home on Sundays with OUR children. Now, he was back to square one.

I decided that since he didn't want to be around the children all of the time I could divorce him and he could be alone as much as he wanted except for his children's visitation days.

My ex-husband couldn't even bring himself to say alcoholic, instead he called himself a "juice head" and left it at that.  This concession was way after we were divorced.

A woman doesn't do everything she can to ensure that her children have a healthy start by eating right, drinking lots of water, no smoking, no drinking no unnecessary medications. A woman doesn't breast feed her children, make her own baby food and use cloth diapers for the first six months only to take them apart emotionally, psychology and mentally down the road.  

The ex-husband had plenty of time to put together a plan of action to negatively impact our children's view of me because while married he was always stopping over at his parent's house and complaining about me. It got so bad that his mother started tripping at a family holiday dinner when I asked my eldest daughter to fetch a diaper so I could burp my baby son. "Doesn't she do anything?" she yelled. 

Who the hell do you think got up every morning and got all four children ready for the day? Needless to say that was the end of having any family holiday meals at his parent's home. I wasn't going to voluntarily go to his parent's home to put up with that crap.

After watching Dr. Phil's podcast on Narcissists I realized why my ex-husband was always complaining about me
, yelling at me and why he became violent toward me...he couldn't control me like some Stepford Wife and have me be a bobble head "yes" wife.