When things get dark and it appears that there is no way out one must cling to the truth as your life raft. When a lot of lies, disinformation and distortions of the truth are being put out there, cling to the truth and pray that in time the truth will be revealed either through an awakening or via karma.
Karma is an interesting concept indeed. One person's concept of karma can differ wildly from another's perception. What makes the difference is owning one's behaviors and looking at one's motivation for telling untruths. That person may be hurt over something another person has done, but unless they are willing to take a close look at their own behaviors such as alcohol abuse and domestic violence that karma is going to bounce back on them.
The concept of karma is often misconstrued and misunderstood and therefore doesn't always appear when a person thinks it should. A person may tell lies and create situations to exhibit the evidence of karma. That is not karma, unfortunately some people will keep repeating the "karma unrealized" scenario until they believe karma has been achieved. These individuals will sink to using their own children as weapons to mete out their idea of karma and will stretch the truth and tell lies to achieve their perception of karma.
Holding onto the truth as one would a life raft will keep one from committing the above scenario. The ride will be bumpy and have many dark moments, but hold onto the truth as the selected target of said behaviors keeps sinking deeper and deeper into their delusion of what karma should be. If the person sinking keeps up their negative behavior, they will manifest a myriad of illnesses.
A recent occurrence on Mother's Day 2022 has driven home that scenario.
When Covid-19 was in full swing in March of 2020 a relative came to me in need of financial help; I had not heard from this person for eight years and found myself feeling a lot of emotions. I did not use the past or the eight- year- absence as an example as to why I should not help them. During the year that followed I gave that person lots of money, allowed them to use my debit card to buy groceries and sent them things via Amazon. I also did my best to help them get money and rental help. All the while being tight lipped about how their absence had hurt me. All I wanted to do was help. I did put my position about certain family matters out there.
During this time other relatives where on my back pressuring me to do something because the relative I was helping had gone to the "dark side" and was an alcoholic and I needed to put them in rehab. The only way to do that was to get a power of attorney over them. It is important to note here that these people trying to manipulate me had done NOTHING to help the relative themselves and only offered up negativity. This includes the Judas Goat that paid the troubled relative a visit before Mother's Day.
So much stress was put upon me by family members that I went to therapy to navigate my way through the tangled mess that (I won't even say well meaning) family had created. The therapist got me to focus on the family member that appeared to be behind it all and deal with their behavior by calling them out in a blog and art as well as telling people what they had done. The idea of gaining power of attorney and putting the other family member in rehab had left and I told the family that if they wanted it they could do it themselves. I knew that they would never do it for a lot of reasons.
I made sure that the relatives had copies of what had to be done to get power of attorney and how much they were responsible for. As I said, I knew it would never happen because the whole purpose was to create difficulties with my relationship with the relative that needed help and not anything else.
The relative behind the problem backed off for awhile and things were ok until Mother's Day 2022 where I was met with anger by the relative for doing that. Another relative had "dropped" by to tell them about my "evil" plan to commit them a few days before my arrival. This individual also told the person needing help that the person behind all of the problems was dying. The fact that I hadn't actually done anything and put myself in therapy to stay the right course was lost.
The perpetrator has been an alcoholic since their 20's and it became a huge problem as they aged. Now, this person has lost their eyesight and their license as well as having shaking issues which is a symptom of Parkinson's Disease. IE these issues were brought on by their own choice and nothing more. They chose to drink ergo they became ill. Wanna label that karma? Be my guest.
As was published in a prior blog, a person that drinks and is abusive will do anything to protect themselves from the TRUTH, while self-righteously proclaiming the sin of the "victim"cheating on them. Honestly, people with a severe case of PTSD do not make the best decisions and who wouldn't have done something equally stupid.
Getting back to Mother's Day 2022, I apologized but also asked who had told them. Their response was to say "Oh come on, you can't lie about it." Who lied? I was being spoken to as if I were lying about it all. I do know where the info came from if anyone is interested.
The next day there was a serious fire across from where the relative lives. They contacted me to seek help via prayers and chanting (I am a Buddhist) and I also spoke to the system there to make sure they had help if they needed it. Their residence was spared.
In spite of this help the relative has not answered emails or texts so it is safe to assume that they have bought the lie/s and are acting the way the person that orchestrated the mess wanted...ie tool.
A few weeks ago I sent an email to the perpetrator asking them to please stop using the family as weapons to get back at me for my unsavory behavior. I also said I had figured out that they were behind the accusation that I was weaponizing relatives all because I refused to put myself in a position to be a victim of their alcoholic rage. The therapist had said that wasn't reasonable or rational thinking on their part so I threw that in. Still in denial of their alcoholic rages and abuse.
I also pointed out that they needed to stop telling lies and come clean about their behavior...ie the truth. In addition, I also stated that whatever they have going on in their head isn't me and that we are estranged for a reason.
I really dodged a bullet on that one given the precarious health issues that person is now facing.
These appear to be dark days for me, but I have the truth and the truth will set you free.
Coming up next will be certain things that were said and done and PTSD which I was treated for.
