Covid 19 and Loss Of Vision, Dental Issues and Alcoholism

 Haven't been writing because I had cataracts that made it feel like I was looking through an onion skin and it was very painful to look at the computer screen or telephone. In addition to the cataracts my ex smacked me across the right side of my face which caused my right eye to twitch up until the surgery when it was fixed. The UCLA Long Covid Clinic is of the opinion that having Covid and Long Covid twice acerbated my cataracts and caused an infection in my gums that would not go away without oral surgery.

As we head into Summer, my gum issues are under control and I have had surgery on one eye and the other in the future.  I was working on a book about growing up on the Sunset Strip, getting arrested for curfew and the ultimate riot on Sunset Strip. I intend to include what it is like to live with a Narcissist. I will soon be picking up where I left off.

Alcohol in the lives of my family and its effects have become quite a concern.  It is a tough pill to swallow when you remember that your ex used to give one of our children alcohol as a child.  They would get drunk and he would laugh. I asked several times for him to stop, but to no avail.  That child is now an out of control alcoholic. If what one of their siblings is saying is true, this child has been drinking since high school.

When I refused to fund this child recently they lashed out at me with very unkind words which I am sure once they get sober will be embarrassed about.  I even went so far as to remind that child why one of their siblings no longer wants to speak to them...Rages.

It is a sad situation indeed, and all I can hope for is that one of their siblings will take pity and take care of their sibling's need for rehab, or the father that needs to step up.  I would rather lose this child to my ex than have them land out on the streets because they will never be able to handle it.

While I am not sure how much of what this child has been saying to me is true and/or is just a manipulative ploy, I just want to see ALL of my children get along and get past the negativity that they've been fed and the angry hostility to ebb. The last few weeks have been an emotional roller coaster with my emotional buttons being pushed in all manner of manipulative ways.